Deep stuff

Once a week I get together with 4 of my closest girls to talk, pray, and read our bibles. Sort of a bible study, sort of an accountability group…

Last night was a tough one. Tough because lots of things came up. Real things, things that have emotion behind them, and hurts and fears and hopes. That stuff is hard to deal with, it’s hard to see through to the other side sometimes, and it can be hard to remember that God is ultimately in control.

But it’s all about going through it together, and ultimately knowing and believing that God is loving and powerful. He already knows the outcomes, the way our lives will play out, and who He has lined up for us.

Working through and letting go of all of this anxiety, worry, stress, and tears is just the way we come to understand God’s character and the ways in which He is taking care of it all, if we would only let Him, and listen for guidance.

I’m so blessed to have these girls in my life. It was a long night for all of us, with the focus moving from person to person. But we all know that we all love each other as sisters, and we’re in it together. Even though by the end of the night I just wanted to break down and sob for, oh, 3 hours or so…I didn’t, but I wish I would have been able to, sometimes a good cry just releases all of that pent up tension from worrying so much.

I know God knows what He’s doing, and His plans are far better than anything I think I want right now.

I’m thankful for where I’ve been, where I’m at, and where I’m going. Things that seem huge today really aren’t that big of a deal in the long run.

I’m glad I have amazing friends to walk through it with me, and I’m glad I can walk with them through their struggles. I’m glad I’m not the one in control, I’d screw stuff up far too often!

And I can just picture God watching me freak out about what I can’t see, smiling and thinking to himself, “If she only knew! It’s going to be great!”

In the meantime…calm down little heart, just calm down. It’s all going to work out…

Pray is much appreciated if you feel like it.
How can I pray for you?

How should I know?

It seems that so many of us are stuck in a weird place. We all feel like we always have too many things to get done, but at the same time we feel like we aren’t doing enough. Or, atleast, that what we are doing isn’t enough.

Will that ever change? Is it something that we, as humans, striving to live for something more, will always battle?

How do we even think that we are the ones qualified to define “enough”? We are not. We are only responsible to listen, and do as we are lead. To be faithful to a calling. To be faithful and live through faith.

Simple, right?

Nope. We over think, over worry, under trust, every single day.

We are creatures full of doubt. And we must make a deliberate choice to replace that doubt with hope and faith. And upon making that choice, you are signing yourself up for an adventure, a challenge, and a purpose.

It just might take a while for your ears to adjust to hearing a constant voice of love. Maybe it takes an entire lifetime.